Spring has arrived

             And I'm so glad it has ...

even if I'm fairly convinced that it's too early

and just a sign of how freakin' hot this summer will be!

                                                                    Who's with me?

City Museum

 If you know, you know.

 

Architectural salvage,

a playground for all ages

and visual over stimulation on every level.

 

10 story high slide!

Yes, I was tired by the time we left.

The Last Ordinary Day

 Talk about a nightmare!

I woke up this morning with the details fading quickly

but the overall gestalt vividly clear.

I woke up (in my dream) with martial law having been established overnight;

the government declared that all citizens were forbidden 

to travel beyond a 5 mile radius of their homes; 

we were forbidden to gather in groups of more than 6, 

unless related by 'blood ties'

and women needed to be accompanied, at all time,

 anywhere we went 

by a male who had 'control' over our actions.

Social media allowed no comments or 'searching'

and instead showed, on continuous loop,

 images of all major cities in smoldering ruins,

dead bodies strewn about all major 'tourist attractions' 

and cultural monuments in every major Western country.

It would seem the world, as we've all known it, was gone forever.

Or was it?

 

The idea that this was an orchestrated lie and attack on our democracy, 

by a cabal of right wing nut jobs, (financed and supported by Bezos, Zuckerberg and Musk)

complete with possibility of AI generated images

was firmly implanted in my head -

and much of the dream was spent with me

Nancy Drewing my theory, getting enough evidence to prove it.

The subsequent book I wrote 

in which I presented my 'evidence' was titled

The Last Ordinary Day.

 

YIKES!

Think I've been watching too much politically based media.

 

What a relief to truly wake up and feel my joints ache,

with the most pressing issue of the day being

going to the fabric store to pick out backing for my quilt top.

Time to concentrate on more fun this weekend!

                                                            Yet the 'political' still lingers ...

 

Quick, more distraction!

A thousand words worth

Memories of the Dairy Queen

 The news didn't 'break' as much as it 'seeped'

into the community where I grew up; 

but the minute it did, I knew right away where it was.

 

We all knew because it was immediately adjacent to our subdivision;

as kids, we had walked there hundreds of time;

it was within the parameter of the 'safe area' we were allowed to traverse 

without adult supervision.

We turned right at the corner of Dennis's house, 

down the street to our 'old' elementary school,

another right down the side of the brick building to the teachers parking lot

and through the field;

a field covered with wild daises and blue cornflowers in spring,

assorted scratchy yellow stalks, teeming with bees and crickets in the summer

and masses of goldenrod in the fall.

 

All these obstacles we'd gladly navigate for a Dilly Bar -

or, if we had 'babysitting money' or an extra dollar from a grandparents visit,

we'd live it up with a hot fudge sundae.

She had been found outside in the payphone booth

 located at the back left side of the building.

 

She had hemorrhaged to death after trying to induce an abortion

with a knitting needle, 

inserting it over and over into her vagina,

ultimately perforating her uterus and severing blood vessels.

She had been alone in the bathroom during her attempt;

she had been alone when she must have realized how seriously wrong things were

and, in desperation, tried to reach out for help

 in the payphone.

She was served up as a cautionary tale to the girls in our community,

for years,

always in hushed tones and darkened rooms.

There are other tales from high school that I could share;

all of them personalized and none of them unique.

Women my age (mid 70's) all have stories like them.

 

Some of the stories have me as a participant in a protracted family drama;

some with me as a silent witness and companion during long bus rides, 

changing to the subway that would take us to a part of New York 

we never would have ventured into for any other reason. 

We had all moved far away from the innocence of taking our younger siblings 

to the Bronx Zoo for an afternoon of riding a camel and people watching.

 

Having lived through an era in which females were denied the safety 

and autonomy of obtaining appropriate healthcare 

for decisions they felt they needed to make,

I'm frankly aghast that we've gone backwards.

I'm also appalled that the emphasis and focus is still on WOMENS bodies;

that the responsibility for addressing an unwanted pregnancy is still HERS alone

with no corresponding consequences or responsibility 

for the male that impregnated her

and that adequate reproductive healthcare is still being denied to women, 

primarily by men with inadequate understanding of women's anatomy 

and no standing at all upon which to base 

inserting themselves into the most intimate of decisions and conversations.

 

If you don't have a uterus, shut up and sit the fuck down!

Insert deep cleansing breath here.

As I've said before, I don't have a uterus anymore either ...

but I had one, 

so I'm grand-mothering my way back into the issue. 

I've witnessed too much to let any female go through this alone again.

We HAVE to have each others backs.