Monday, August 4, 2014

Retirement update

Its not that I can't fill up the hours:
I'm reading.
I'm facilitating outreach projects for the parish and the Diocese.
I chair the Missions committee.
I Co-chair the Stewardship Campaign.
I joined the Rec Center and am working out x3/wk.
I read.
I'm working on projects around the house.
I've reclaimed all of the yard I care to tame.
I've met friends for breakfast, brunch, lunch, dinner, Happy Hour and tapas.
I meet friends for movies.
I've traveled to contiguous states to visit family and friends.
I swim.
I walk.
I write.
I've caught up on the all the popular media I care to.

My blood pressure rarely gets raised.
I don't obsess about the state of the country - or the world.

Retirement is nice;
it's as if I've found a 'Mute" button and have set it as my default.
And that's the problem.

I miss living with passion.
I miss having a job that takes all of who I am. 
I miss feeling consumed by what I'm doing.
I miss feeling passionate about how I spend my days.

I don't want a job or new career that depletes me;
I don't want to go back to that.
I don't want to place myself last.

But living a muted, nice life isn't who I am.
It's not what I want.

I have NEVER worked 'just for pay'.
I won't start now.
Even on the days I hated, I loved my job.
I knew I was making a difference

I'm still looking for work that has meaning
and that completes me.
Other than that,
things are fine.

Too bad that's a huge piece that's still missing!

1 comment:

Kathy Schmaeng said...

You should open up an etsy store!