Parallel Universes -

and me, not entirely comfortable in either one.

I  came back from a world on the reservation in which many of our 'partner families' have trouble making a mortgage payment of generally under $300.00 a month -  and one family which actually had to use the money they'd saved up for the $500.00 down payment on their house (which took them, BTW, over a year) to pay for their oldest child's funeral instead -  to read that Kim Kardashian will spend $1 million on the delivery of her baby next month.

She's reserved a deluxe birthing suite, which is to be blanketed in dozens of white roses, staffed by a personal hairdresser and photographer and featuring special organic clothes and sheets for the baby.

She'll also wear some of the $25,000 in French lingerie she bought in Paris recently because "she has no intention of wearing plain old hospital gowns that have been worn by other women".
REALLY?

I came back from a world in which Native women are 2.5 times more likely than the general female population to experience sexual assault and in which 37. 5% of the Native women population will experience intimate partner violence in their lifetime to a world in which when a 2 yr old female, with long fingernails, scratches herself, leaving a small laceration on her labia, the day care center calls the police and Children's division with allegations of a rape in her home, demanding the child be subjected to a rape kit and DNA collection before she can be readmitted to the center.
REALLY?

Re-entry is hard; 

it always is.

I thought I was prepared for it 

since its not exactly like this was my first time 

at the rodeo, ya know?

I was wrong.

It's been harder than I anticipated.

Both worlds seem crazy to me -

and not at all

how we were intended to live.