Life ... it goes on

I haven't been writing. 

It doesn't mean I’m not thinking and doing and feeling.

It just means that I haven't been writing. 

And I can't freak out about it. 

 The desire to express myself in written form will come back – 

or it won’t.

In the meantime,

there have been 

meetings, 

computer classes for new skills,

solicitations for new ventures, 

speaking engagements,

scheduling conflicts,

conversations with children 

and

celebrations of life,

(those newly begun and those tragically ended).

There's been 

laughter,

awe,

fear

and

crying.

I've seen a whole different side 

of the adult medicine world

and learned that,

if it's OK with you, Lord, 

I'd rather not see any more!

I've remembered why I thought 

retirement was a good idea

in the first place

and found a few more reasons 

to be grateful for

coming back to work.

And, as always,

in the midst of all the 'not still',

there are still moments of

stillness

and beauty.